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Now 80% of my thoughts are about suicide

Seven

>>110467
I appreciate the detail. Definitely worth even replying at all

I didn't really have a childhood. My parents kept me inside watching tv. The closest thing I had to outside time was when I was visiting my cousins and we'd go mucking about at the park. It I had to pinpoint specifically when I realized things were fucked, it's when I found out the tooth fairy/Easter bunny/Santa Claus weren't real. Realizing that the people I loved would lie to me to such an extent for years, and find it funny, that laid some bad precedent on my ability to enjoy anything.

>>110470
My mom kicked me out then. Unpleasant

>>110525
at 7? what kind of turd world county do you live in?

>>110523
Im against seriously convincing kids about santa etc. so its interesting to hear that someone actually had their life pained by that.

It comes back when you hold your firstborn child in your arms and feel their tiny hand wrap around your finger.

>>110464
i still have it, i recognise that the lucidity back then coupled and the joy was entitely warranted, nostalgia makes a ton of money on this very principle, why would i trade that for a loose idea of 'growing up' essentially meaning 'being a miserable low energy drone'?

>>110887
A lot of people get mind broken out of it by others. Happened to me until I had a kid. That fixed me.

>>110929
Having a child shouldn't be recommended as a solution for mental issues. Your story sounds like larp bullshit

>>110931
it just seems as though theyve been brainwashed by the 'le family' media brainwashing and so they're attributing feeling good to that, when in reality they probably just got a good night's sleep

>>110464
Never had any to begin with.

>>110938
Cmon avid, at least say something cleverly nihilistic like 'those are just brain chemicals enslaving you to a worthless parasite you brought into a world of suffering out of sheer selfishness.'

You gotta up your antinatalist game.

The truth is, holding your newborn son or daughter is primordial stuff and is one of those moments that defines your entire life. I think a lot of people are brainwashed to have mixed feelings about it but if you embrace it having a little one is the best feeling in the world, way better than sex or any drug I tried in my misspent youth. It legit makes the world feel real again, like things matter. The world grows grey and the enthusiasm of youth fades with time. Procreating brings that back and passes on the gift of youth to a person who reminds you and your wife of each other and your forebears, both in how they look and how they act (assuming you don't let the system mindbreak them into a monster or deviant by handing them over to it.)

>>111002
This is why I'm so cut by my incompetence with the supermarket girl (I waited too long), she looks so much like me, we would have had such good looking children.

>>111002
>Procreating brings that back and passes on the gift of youth to a person
You're also passing on the gift of suffering, cancer, death, dodging drones, starvation, etc. Your baby will only receive the gift of old age if it's lucky.

Your sight is very limited if you can only see that which you hold in your hand.

>>111014
Illness and death are divine, because they’re principles of decay. That is part of the generality of glory. We’re all going to die. We’re all going to suffer. Nietzsche once said that sympathy multiplies misery.
Some are born hale and hearty; some are going to be spiritually strong, smoke three packs of Capstan Full Strength, and die in their bed at 90. Others don’t have eyes and don’t have legs and are born misshapen and diseased and malformed. And yes, it’s a tragedy, but nature spews out life, all the time, and some are destroyed, and others move towards the sun.
This is really what our people believe, or at least feel instinctively.

>>111017
you sound depressed

>>111017
Keyed.

>>111017
>And yes, it’s a tragedy, but nature spews out life, all the time, and some are destroyed, and others move towards the sun
The heart of the issue here is probability and risk management. R vs K selection. In sea turtle reproduction the vast majority of hatchlings die horrendous deaths on their first day of life. If a man's theoretical offspring faced such odds -that is 99% of his children are fated to die in horrid ways as young children- that man should not reproduce and subject livings beings to such horrors

The problem in this thread is that a sick man (>>110869) that literally refers to himself as "mindbroken" (>>110929) is recommending to other sick and "mindbroken" men that their mental problems can be solved by having a child

>nature spews out life, all the time, and some are destroyed, and others move towards the sun.
And in terms of probability do you believe the children of these men will destroyed or "move towards the sun?". In my own opinion only the healthy and therefore happy should be reproducing, as a bare minimum requirement

>>111026
Uhm...but we aren't sea turtles tho haven't u noticed? lmfao xd

>>110464
join a youth group they said

>>110464
test