>>111222I looked it up and it seems pretty gay and jewish. It's like a pill or injection or something? I'd rather "inject" smoke into my lung cells.
>>111228about 1 time per week I would regretfully watch some form of porn. I would watch the shit (sub-categories like "solo" or whatever) I'm into and it would feel good but I could tell that I was losing the spiritual battle for self-control. I truly want to have self-control and ascend in a biblical way. To be honest it was getting to the point where I had been doing it for so long (combined with the spiritual guilt) that I actually truly got sick of it. I started to truly realize how pointless porn was. Like, I bust a nut, and then what? Does my life actually change for the better? No. Now WHILE I was watching porn I would smoke about 1 time every 2 weeks as a kind of celebration for getting though a tough work-week or something.
I stopped porn for about 3 months (actually not difficult since I now truly believe it's pointless) and it just occurred to me that I have a cloud over my head and I can't stop reaching for the tobacco. I'm smoking between 1 and 2 hundred millimeter's every day now, which I said I would NEVER do. I always said I was above NPCs with retarded addictions. Turns out I had come to rely on porn. That kind of sex euphoria from porn messed me up I guess. I wouldn't say it's impossible to not have a bad habit but it's tough. I'm the furthest thing from an NPC. I'm total chud that prides himself on moral ascension.
