No.110564
Join a traditional lutheran or eastern orthodox church and reset your mind to a more normal human state which participates in something bigger than itself.
If I had to take a guess, you've been a hedonist your whole life and nothing makes sense anymore because hedonism eventually reaches a roadblock in which you can't even trust your own subjective mind anymore to deliver what's best for you.
No.110566
>>110564yeah correct, mostly just gooning and having safe games to play that require little thought such as soulsbourne games. to be honest im scared to change out of fear that I will get a complete reset for trying too much to not be like me.
No.110573
>>110566Yeah the reset is painful and slow. It's worth it however, especially if you actually believe the teachings of Jesus
No.110575
>>110572christians didn't spend 1900 years persecuting jews. they've been protecting and empowering them from the very beginning
>pagans are hunted to the farthest reaches of the arctic and destroyed>judaism is the one and only other religion ever allowed in christian europe>they're allowed their own part of every single town and citythey gained power in christian rome and it only increased from there. charlemagne (who beheaded 5000 saxons in a single night for rejecting christianity) placed them directly in charge of the banking system of his empire. they married into literally every single royal bloodline in christian europe.