So about a year and a half ago, I was scrolling on DeviantArt when this (
https://www.deviantart.com/avchonline/art/Octavia-the-world-of-my-own-777725763 ) caught my eye. Immediately after clicking on it, I felt a very strange feeling. Almost uncanny, but not necessarily in a negative way as that word usually implies; more in an out-of-place way. Prior to seeing it, I had been doing something I often did at the time, which was browsing deviantart and rapidly downloading related artwork through the right-hand sidebar. I was doing it quickly and wasn't really that much attention, but as soon I found this particular artwork, I stopped in my tracks and was immediately fixated in a very jarring way.
For a solid minute or two, I stared intently at the image; not only contemplating the image itself, but trying to understand exactly what I was feeling as well. After thinking for some time, I thought to myself that it had a strong aura of innocence and serenity.
Immediately afterwards, I found the artist's other artwork. Hundreds upon hundreds of images of My Little Ponies in tutus (
https://crba.dedyn.io ). At first, I thought it was very peculiar, maybe even a bit "cringe worthy", but within about fifteen minutes, all of that melted away into an irresistible infatuation with it.
Before I can continue, I need to give a bit of background. I've had a recurring type of dream for long time. In them, I encounter or get ahold of some mystical abstract object. Importantly, it can only be comprehend within the dream. In many of them, I even become self-aware of this and desperately attempt to take it out of the dream. When I wake up, I remember the rest of the dream, but the "thing" is blanked out of the dream, occasionally with "corona"-like feeling of almost being able to get ahold of it but not quite.
Anyway, what happened after looking at the artwork for some time was a sudden shift in my perception. I began to visually perceive the artwork with an entirely new mode of perception. This mode of perception is also something I had also seen only in dreams before. The best description I can muster is a transcendental level of sharpness where something becomes so sharp that your lowest level of visual perception sees things that can't be perceived i
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